I think. A lot. About everything.
And I write it down in this blog because this way it sounds a lot less crazy than it does when I try to incorporate it in everyday conversation.
Sound familiar?
I have a personality that feels the need to call it as I see it.
I have a tendency to be brutally honest, and it has been know to get me into trouble, although I see nothing wrong with it. Some people just can't take the heat.
I write to blow off steam and soak up extra thoughts and emotions lingering in my mind.
At times my blogs may seem depressing or emotional but I think sometimes that is the easiest way to relate to others.
No one is happy all the time, life is not perfect and neither are we.
Honestly I believe there are a lot more hurting people then we are aware.
Most are good at keeping face.
Not letting anyone in.
Because they are afraid others will judge them. They are afraid they won't understand.
And some won't. Some can't.
Whether it is because they have never been in that same place or because they suppress their emotions so well that they can't open up to feeling your pain long enough to help you through it.
It seems selfish, though they are only trying to protect themselves.
So maybe you write, smoke, drink, or whatever it may be.
Perhaps you come here.
Because reading this makes me human, makes me just like you, and reminds you that there is someone else who has gone through it and does understand.
I've been in a place where it seems like no one is listening, and I'm left alone and it sucks.
I'm here writing more when things are not going well, because when I post something, suddenly people are listening, and I'm not alone anymore.
It's therapeutic really, isn't it?
Knowing that someone is there and you no longer have to hear your echo in the winds around you.
"Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for." -Dag Hammarskjold
