Writing, for me, is like an escape.
Growing up I was never really taught or modeled how to show or talk about my feelings.
Not that I wasn't allowed to, it has just never come naturally to me or really anyone in my family.
So I bottle things up, until I explode.
Usually the explosion is in the form of excessive tears or an outburst of rage, or both.
I have become slightly notorious for this.
However, as a reaction to a recent heartbreak, I learned that I am capable of channeling all of this pent up emotion into a blog.
Why I didn't think of this sooner is beyond me. I've never considered myself a writer. Rather, I've always been one to hide my writings from everyone.
Why?
Because when I write, I'm vulnerable. If you want to know how I really feel, just read what I write and you will never be closer to the truth.
So I hid it, because although I honestly do not care what anyone says about it, the thought of commentary is overwhelming. Mostly because these are my thoughts, as they come, and there is no changing them.
However, I was taken with the idea of being able to express myself without having to answer to anyone. And since I've started it has become quite gratifying.
When I get in writer's mode, it's like I'm in my own world. I am able to say what I please, whenever I want and exactly as I wish to say it.
It is as easy as putting a pen to paper. Or so far in my case, fingers to a keyboard.
A simple thing really, that is an outlet for excess emotion. And it calms me, knowing that it is out of my mind and in the confidence of just whoever I want to see it.
So I will continue as needed to let the creativity flow in the form of this blog.
I appreciate all the open minded readers who come to get to know me a little better rather than to judge or criticize.
Originally and yet still a creation to benefit myself, I can't help but hope if anything I say has any impact on my followers, that it would be positive, perhaps inspirational.
Welcome to my escape. My newfound source of sanity. My personal paradise.
"Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish." John Jakes
