"Scared of the unknown.
We need to not be scared.
I don't think it works that way.
Change is scary, anything different is scary. "
-Hellcats
What are you scared of?
What's your biggest fear?
Spiders, snakes, tight spaces, heights, loneliness, death, love, life?
Wanna know what I'm scared of....
Vulnerability, failure, dying before living.
I'm scared that I won't get all the time I want, like this one life isn't going to be enough for me. As if I'm wasting it away. Or as if my options are limited and that will lead me to failure, that will close doors for me.
And it might.
Holding back means I'll never love as deep as the ocean.
It means I'll never learn from my mistakes.
Caution will get in the way of freedom.
But I'm really scared of fear, because fear means all these things. Fear means I'm holding back something, maybe everything.
It means I might miss out.
"You can do anything you put your mind to."
Can you?
Can I?
Not if we're too scared. Not if we get in our own way.
Guess what? I'm in my own way. And I don't how to move myself aside, now that's scary.
I may not have the resources, the connections, the opportunities that others may get. However, I don't need any of those.
What I need is the will.
The determination to do whatever I want in this life.
Is determination, will, easily acquired by any seeker? I don't think so.
I think will is part of a persons' personality. You are either created with it or without it.
And if you have it, to what degree? Is there a limit? What will put a cap on your will to do whatever you want?
Fear. Fear of something.
For me, fear of failure. That if I take a step out in determination, in faith, without holding back, throwing caution to the wind, that I won't recover if it doesn't work out as planned.
What if something goes wrong? What will people think? Will I regret it forever? How will I live with myself knowing I messed up?
I believe this is what they call internal conflict. So what do I do?
Mind over matter.
Remember you only have one life, one chance, to do it exactly as you want to. Every single moment matters. Every moment defines who you are.
So do what you want to do, love as much as you can, cry as hard as you want, laugh loud, have values, try something new, set goals and reach them.
And don't waste time letting you get in the way.
Me, I'll look myself in the face, push myself aside, move forward and step blindly off a ledge.
If I fall, remember, it's just gravity. I have the strength to stand back up.
If I fly, the possibilities are endless.
"If we're growing, we're always going to be out of our comfort zone." John Maxwell
"If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything." -Win Borden
